What happened to you ?

I was told that most likely no one even reads my blog
except my 2 kids and that is ok.
I only started writing because I wanted someone
to talk things though with even if it was only myself.
I also thought that maybe I could somehow be a witness for Jesus.
I had hoped to say something profound but true that would place a
thought in someone's mind about our need to know....
where we will spend eternity. I do not always say things right.
But my motive was right.
Did I count my own cost when I reconized my need for a saviour?
My answer is no, I did not. I only know that one day I did not decide
to become an outcast in my family and lose all those I thought were friends. I didn't one day decide that I needed something to believe in. I didn't just decide one day say ....Oh I think i'll believe in Jesus whom most people reject, who most people won't talk about, who many say isn't even real. I only know that God showed me one day my entire existence and where I was headed. He showed me what a sinner I was. I only know that when I had an encounter with God, Jesus revealed the truth to me in a way that I know without a doubt that he is real. He forgave me of every sin. He came to live in me and gave me a new heart. He put his spirit in me and changed me inside.
He took my defeat and gave me confidence. He took my depression and gave me hope.
He took my unforgiveness and bitterness and gave me love and compassion for others.
He took my poverty and he meets my every need. I may not have what others think that makes
one rich but ....I have what money cannot buy......Peace and a knowing that if I die tomorrow that I will live forever. We will all live forever in either of 2 places. He took out of me a desire to be accepted with people and showed me true acceptance. He took the worry of tomorrow out of me and put the faith of God in me. When a person experiences the change that only Jesus can give ...There is no way anyone can say wait ....maybe i shouldn't believe in him. This would be like taking a gun and killing youself. No matter what anyone says it doesnt matter,no matter how bad you are treated it doesn't matter, Nothing matters but Jesus. He fills you up completely. He is more real thet what we can physically see.